Navigating one's twenties is the most perpetually confusing time in life. It's like walking through heavy fog in the early morning. I feel stuck in the twilight zone. I want the fulfilling things in life but am stuck in loops of patterns that I can’t escape. I repeat the same never-ending cycle of people I meet that don’t stay and some who I have to find reason and lessons in it all. Being in one's twenties is this trial and error period where you aren’t where you quite want to be and stuck in limbo in time in which you feel you are running out of time. I barely know how long a stranger will actually stay in my life. Sometimes if I get lucky some people stay the course. Other times they leave without much warning and I feel like I am the home others look for but never stay long in. I am not the visitor I am the resident and they come and go along don't their mere way.
I am grateful for everyone who stays and others who leave but most of all I constantly tell myself to convince myself that I am still young and I am still learning. I can’t rush life no matter how I may want to.
On this grand quest for wanting to find love I ultimately came to realize that I just need to do what makes me happy, what brings me joy, and stay with those moments because I don’t know how fleeting they may be.
I am simply a traveler in this life with my pen and paper jotting down my discoveries along the way. I remind myself when life is confusing and mystifying that life is my teacher and I am the student. I am eager to learn, eager to fail, and eager to get it right the first time.
I am learning that not everyone is going to stay, actually, most people we meet will leave because we all have journeys of our own and for those that stay a while with us it's important to bask in the sun with them. To drench oneself in the light of day and enjoy anothers company because after all who knows where the journey will take us next?
